This article is a love letter to Moon in Gemini people. No, this is not a series. This is a special article for Moon in Gemini.

Years and years ago, I did a reading for someone with Moon in Gemini. I can’t even remember why but I remember feeling flummoxed by something during the reading. I was new to reading charts. So, I emailed the client and asked them if I could take their chart to a mentor and ask him to take a look.

I’ve never forgotten what he told me about Moon in Gemini. “Moon in Gemini is a Moon that other people don’t trust. They have trouble fitting in.” He said something along those lines and asked me if I asked enough questions about the person’s family background. I hadn’t. That was something I was learning to work on.

The reason why I remember those words so clearly is because they struck me, at the time, as something that I could never tell a person. I still don’t think I could ever tell someone that in those words. But I’ve been reading charts longer now. I know what to watch for and how to read in a way that is relevant for what the person needs company with analyzing at the time of the reading.

And guess what? Moon in Gemini is still a puzzle to me. Even on my tenth year of practice.

Intellectuals love Moon in Gemini people but is Moon in Gemini a stinking public intellectual? Hell no. They would never feign a title so typical. Everyone on earth has an opinion but Moon in Gemini refuses to be reduced to just that. Hello? This is a Moon that’s split in half right down the middle.

Technically, I know why Moon in Gemini is hard to read. This is the Moon in its twelfth house position from its home. The Moon is at home in Cancer. It’s lost in Gemini.

Emotionally, I know why Moon in Gemini is hard to read for me. My grandpa, who I look up to, had a Moon in Gemini.

I’ll tell you a bit about his life. He grew up on the run. His parents were in hiding because they were running from the government. His father was sentenced to death the year he was born but escaped with a shaman’s help and a sleight of hand. They were spies. They ran tobacco shops that were fronts for revolutionary meetings. My grandpa grew up in prison, a political prisoner passing secret messages as a four year old.

And he didn’t like his family. He didn’t hate them either but he didn’t like them enough to splinter off from them after he became an adult. Or, maybe he was kicked out by his siblings after his dad died. We don’t know because he’s so ambivalent about the whole matter. “Children should listen to their parents,” he tells his children. He never spoke to his own.

He never joined a faction his whole life. During the Cultural Revolution, he had to go into hiding because he told a high ranking party member “As long as people like you are in the Communist party, I will never join” as a personal attack. And he didn’t. His parents joined when the government was killing communists but he refused to join after the party won the civil war.

So, how’s that for being on the weird side of history? A political party isn’t some indie band. You’re not supposed to join when it’s unpopular and leave once it is.

Moon in Gemini doesn’t take sides. It doesn’t join. It just won’t. It doesn’t care about the stakes. Maybe it just doesn’t care enough. Or, maybe it remains perpetually doubtful.

Try to agree with a Moon in Gemini. You can’t. As soon as you start to agree with them, they switch sides. It’s like they don’t want to be caught.

So, I think I can guess why intellectuals like Moon in Gemini people so very much. These are people who are able to speak on controversial opinions without ever taking a stance. They are tricksters of the mind. They’re not on the right side of history or the wrong. They’re not in the middle either, god forbid. They just move around a lot. They’re questioning everything.

Gemini Moons are thinking. Constantly. With surrealism and goofiness and precision. And you can’t help but be impressed by their audacity because they force you to wrestle with ideas the way a good fighter forces you to learn your muscles.

You can never tell if they like you or not.

I think that’s the thing about them and why the astrologer I saw for consultation advice told me what he told me. When people aren’t sure if you like them, they try to push you out. My grandpa was pushed out a lot—by his family, by his coworkers, and by his political ideas. He was a misfit at a time when not fitting in was dangerous. But he did it when it was hard and when it became easy. Towards the end of his life, he read nothing but trashy fantasy novels that little kids like to read just so that he wouldn’t have to talk with the family.

Maybe Moon in Gemini doesn’t care about fitting in. Maybe belonging is a concept that gets weaponized by fascism because domination starts in the home. Us vs them. Why must we belong to something to participate socially? I think that Moon in Gemini makes a wager. “I can live in this world without falling for the trick of belonging.”

The last thing that my grandpa, who lived as a Moon in Gemini and died a Moon in Gemini, told me was “I don’t like all these other old people.” I was trying to get him to make friends. He didn’t want to.

You can’t tell if Moon in Gemini likes you or not. That’s like catnip to intellectuals. Intellectuals and people who identify as that never know if they like something or not. They like being tested, these high achievers who read books. They’re always testing you.

I learned something this last year. I learned that expressing doubt is one of the highest versions of trust possible. You see, expressing doubt takes tremendous energy. You have to really analyze your relationship with someone and observe them in order to doubt them. Doubt is a part of trust because you can never really trust someone who you never doubt.

Why is it that, to be in a relationship with someone, you have to belong to them in some sense. We call people “my” friend as though loving someone requires possession. Why is it that we have to accept our place in the world to feel like we’re a part of something? What if place is just place and we are legged creatures who can move? What if the landscape changes around us? Would we still belong?

Doubt is exhausting. It just takes so much mental work and communication. Never devalue doubt. If someone gives you their doubt, they’re doing a huge amount of work to speak to you.

Why so intellectuals love Moon in Gemini people so much? Because they don’t belong. They do mental work but they don’t call themselves anything. They are thinkers who don’t identify as such. They’re not thinkers. They just think as a verb. And that’s what the people who call themselves intellectuals want to be doing.